I can't think

I'm too tired and sick to think, let alone try and pay attention to my homework and classes. This is not so much fun. It all started on Saturday morning (as my daddy can attest, I texted him complaining. It's a good thing he loves me :) ). I woke up with a sore throat and a deep desire to not get out of bed. And since I had pulled the mattress out of the fold-out bed in the couch to sleep in the family room, I didn't have to get out of bed. I just reached over and grabbed the remote and watched tv. All day long. It was nice....well, as nice as it could be with a sore throat, headache, and an unconfirmed fever (I don't have a thermometer, but I do have a pack of frozen veggies in the freezer that made my head feel a lot better...). I think I might have gotten 4 hours of sleep Saturday night, I think. Couldn't really tell ya. And yet I still went to church and all my meetings, even after deciding that I couldn't make it. I forgot to turn off my alarm, so it went off at 6:30 bright and early Sunday so I could get ready for my 7:30 PEC meeting. I figured that even though I wasn't going to go to church, at the very least, I should take a shower cuz I didn't look or smell very pretty. By the end of the shower I was feeling almost close to almost normal, so I decided that I could make it through PEC and sacrament and then come home and die some more. 

PEC was definitely interesting, mostly cuz I was so out of it that I would start laughing at the smallest thing and Bishop kept asking me why I was laughing. Which only made me want to laugh more. At one point Bishop asked if there was anything that needed to be addressed with the RS and I said no. He gave me this look that said "I don't believe you" and I replied "Ok, so I'm pretty sure there is something, but right now I honestly couldn't tell ya. I'm a little out of it right now." And that little bit right there is about all I can remember from our hour or so meeting. Well, that and a lot of laughing being done by all, but that's nothing new. We're always joking and laughing at one point or another in PEC. It's a great way to start the day. If only it weren't so early....

Then I went to sacrament and sat with Alaina. Amazingly enough we didn't bust out laughing during the songs (we usually do when we sit next to each other. It's so funny! Cuz we can't stop laughing and then we laugh harder cuz we can't stop. I always wonder what the girls think of us as we're sitting in the front of RS laughing our heads off during the opening song, and sometimes into the prayer). I'm not too sure why I went to Sunday School, mostly likely it was out of habit, I couldn't even tell ya what the lesson was on. I pretty much just sat there and stared off into space. But I can tell you what the RS lesson was about! Since it was the 4th Sunday, it was on talks from General Conference on prayer, but Emily forgot that she was teaching and so she made up the lesson during the first two hours of church. It was a great lesson despite the lack of preparation. She began the lesson by talking about unity and asked the girls if they thought the ward was united. Let me tell you those first few seconds of silence after she asked that question scared me so bad I was wide awake the rest of the meeting. I felt so much fear and tension in those few seconds because I was sure the silence meant that they all hated the ward and wanted to move out as quickly as possible. Luckily, the girls proved that wrong. I felt so much better after hearing what they had to say and they even gave some suggestions as to make us even more united as a RS and as a ward (I'm gonna talk to Bishop about some of those suggestions in the next PEC). All in all, it was a great church meeting and I'm really glad I went. Especially since later that day the RS and Priesthood leaders had dinner at the Heath's house (they are in the stake. Bro. Heath is on the High Council and Sis. Heath is the Stake RS Board Member for our ward). The food was so yummy and the company was amazing! I love the Heath's, they are so much fun to be around. And, really, who doesn't love sitting across the table from some of the cutest guys around?!?! If I hadn't gone to church then I wouldn't have let myself go to the dinner (that I learned from Mom. If I wasn't well enough to go to school, then I wasn't well enough to go anywhere else either). So, I'm doubly glad I forgot to turn off my alarm. It was a great day, even though I was sick. 

The rest of the week has gone by about the same as church. With random times I remember clearly and times I forgot where I was going and why. I had a huge group project due Tuesday that I spent basically all of Monday finishing cuz my group members didn't have their stuff done till that day and I was the only one with the time to compile it all together. I finished around 10:30 pm (again, as daddy can attest to. I called him on my way to my car from the library, it was dark and there have been attacks on campus lately and I wanted to hear a comforting voice to calm my fears. Thanks again daddy for letting me interrupt ya...and for putting up with me!), with strict instructions for the other members to print it out and bind it before class. Imagine how annoyed and frustrated I was when I got a text from one of them Tuesday morning asking me all kinds of questions about things they wanted to add to it and if I had done this or that. I almost walked out of Institute to take care of it all, but wisdom prevailed and I asked God for some help so that I could stay in class and that everything would work out and get taken care of. And it did! I got a text from this person just before Institute ended telling me that everything was printed out and ready to turn in. 

After such a stressful few days, I decided to take the rest of Tuesday off from anything related to school (everyone in that class was so burned out by the project that the teacher even commented on it and let us out a little early). Tuesday was also free pancakes at IHOP, so I rounded up a few friends and we headed to IHOP for some yummy pancakes. It was so much fun! We laughed and giggled, took pictures galore, and ate our free food. Then later I went and played night games with a group of people from the ward. It was awesome! Except now I'm so sore that I can hardly move without my muscles protesting violently. And yet I still plan on playing again this weekend anyway :D

Since then I've been trying to get back on track with my school work. I have 4 projects due within the next few weeks. 2 before Spring Break (on the same day, I might add) and the other two the week after Spring Break. Right now, I doubt that I will have enough of the last two done to be able to head home for the break. I really want to go home, but I need to work on these projects and it looks like the only time I will have will be during the break. Man! I hate being responsible!! Why couldn't I have gotten a little less of that trait?!?! : ) I think that if I spend every day in the library for 4-5 hours that I can get it all done and be able to go home (Here's hoping!). 

And I'm trying to do all of this while still sick. Needless to say, this week has been interesting (as will the next few weeks) and I'm amazed that I've gotten as much done as I have. I know that there is only one source that could have helped me with that, and I'm truly grateful for it.